My Journey to Self-Redemption From Shadows to Sunlight

Come take this Journey with me , At 55 years old, I find myself reflecting on a life that, for far too long seemed dictated by my bad choices , I tried to blame them on everybody else, that way I didn't have to look in the mirror. A quarter of a century I was obsessed with someone who was grappling with his personal demons, and those years vanished like smoke, leaving a lingering sense of lost time. Yet deep within me, grew the realization that life's journey is not about where you've been, but where you choose to go. I promise its never too late to forge a new path.

Pulled into a turbulent existence, i left behind a family that loved me for a life of disappointment, heartache, and legal skirmishes. Despite the chaos, the ever-echoing whispers of who I used to be refused to be silenced. A pivotal moment came when I resolved that I no longer wanted to live beneath the shadows. Somehow I found the courage to step away , go back home to Youngstown and embark on a journey of self restoration, leaving behind the toxic lifestyle that only disappointed.

With perseverance, I sought stability-sidelining those nightmares and darker days. I was one of the lucky ones who made it out. I knew a lot of beautiful people that weren't so lucky. Guilt, that one is hard to deal with I question God a lot wondering why he saved me. I believe that he saved me for a purpose not quite sure what that is Yet but I'm hoping together we can help each other figure it out along the way. No one said life was going to be easy, but with this healing community I'm positive it will get easier.

I earned a good job finally, only to face another trial when a injury at work sidelined me for two years. Time turned into a double-edged sword, ushering in the temptation of gambling. who knew you didn't even have to leave home. As an doer of excess gambling soon became a new hurdle.

My rock through this tumultuous, period was Dan, my fiancée, who's unwavering support was the lifeline I desperately needed My two dogs Scooby and Maverikk my reasons to forgive myself. Despite the strain of our circumstances-especially amidst the chaos of home renovation-his steadfast presence reminded me that I was not alone. Yet, in the whirlwind, i found solace in a unexpected place. PAINTING

Immersing myself in colors and canvases, I discovers a hidden passion that became both refuge and revelation. Painting became a revelation that renewed my spirit-a creative endeavor that whispered promises of healing. Inspired by its transformative power I began nurturing a vision of starting a business, a venture to guide others to healing and rediscovery through art.

But let's face it, changing one's life isn't easy. i know firsthand that going to the gym isn't a everyday feat nor is the process of building this website a seamless journey It's hard as hell and it took me forever to get this far. That's precisely why I invite you to take this journey with me. Together, we can learn, grow, and support each other as we face the challenges and celebrate the victories along the way.

As I venture further I aim to share strategies on how to seize each day and conquer the insidious foe of procrastination. For while the ghosts of the past linger, they do not dictate our future.

The story of my life doesn't conclude at this chapter it beckons reader to join and embark on this adventure with me. Together, we'll explore the highs, the lows, and everything in between-a testament that renewal and transformation are always within reach. The journey continues, and I'm excited to learn and grow with you all. Just promise you'll bare with me along the way because I'm just as unsure about this journey as you are. So let's dive Into the next phase, hand in hand, as we pursue a fulfilled life one day at a time.